Does bad news always come in bucket loads for everyone or just me??

I want to know one thing, is it really as hard as they say it is to give ya bad news????

had my monthly mamo a few days ago, since then my boob has been very hard like knocking on a counter top,

hmmmmmmmmm

then comes the phone call, saying Diane i am sorry to have to tell you this

"the radioligist did not like the looks of your mamogram"

"he thinks we need more biopsi's"

"I am really sorry to have to tell you this again"

hmmmmmmmmmm

my question is does it really bother doctors to call you on the friggin phone and tell you that????hmmmmmmmmm one may never really know,

maybe they need biopsi;s again but they can wait until i see if i am going to have to have biopsi's on my lung, because they can do them at the same time while i am knocked out and remove both of them at the same time!!!

I am done playing!!!!!!!!!!!

either do it and do it right or leave me the hell alone!!!

YUP i have come to that point sadly i have to admit,

and they did not know why i have pain, hmmmmmmmmmm i bet they do now,

the trouble with doctors these days is they do not listen the their patients!!!

if it is back and not even been a year then off the friggin thing, both of them!!

have not said anything to anyone today, not sure i am going to for a while

jeremy does not handle that news well, and with him out there playing in the land of the chain saw i sure do not want him distracted and slip with that friggin thing,

Jim well he has his own issues to deal with maybe having to have another surgry on his neck I hate to see him in pain, and having cancer his self , everyone has enough issues of their own and do not need mine,

NO more friggin lump it out cause that has never worked for me!!!

if it is back the whole thing is leaving this time and while they are at it they can take the other one too, i would not want to be uneven, now would i? lol

along with the part of my lung that has issues if that mass like thingy is cancer i am probably done anyway,

I DO NOT WANT TO PLAY THIS GAME NO MORE!!!

Jim was in pain,

so i sure was not going to lay that on his shoulders!

God Bonnie where are you when i need my person to talk to for advice,

all i have to hear when i go to see the heart surgeon friday is more bad news ,i will bend over and get a running start and run into the cement wall head first!

I m not even kidding, so much to look forward to wooooooooo hooooooooooo aint live gran?

well i guess there is one thing i can think about and that is what boob size do i want, lol i know bad joke, but crying is out of the question,

chemo, a very real posiblty this time

hmmmmmmmmmmmm no hair anywhere on my body for months,

now here is something to look forward to puking everyday,,

oh yeah now thats a treat, everyone should have that on their list of things to look forward to,

more on the serious side here now,

ok i think i have lost it!!!

time for bed Wednesday July 15 12:52 Am