I just do not understand life anymore

Not sure in what direction life is going anymore, as a matter of fact not sure about much of anything any more, but one thing i do know, all this BS had better push the hell over cause i am coming through!!! and i am not going to stop pushing until i am standing on that other side thumbing my nose at the BS you put unexpecting and undserving people through, this ugly shit keeps rearing its ugly head, BUT I am only going to play this game one way, and that is I WIN!!! so take your ugly BS and get the hell out of my life!!! do not delay just go away you are buggin me!!! you have taken many others in my family but you are not getting me!! so take ya ugly BS and go haunt someone else, cause like i have said before YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WIN THIS TIME

i have fought you before and i will fight you again but damn i must say i am sick of fighting in my life, i would like to know what happiness is just once in my life time, i mean total happiness, not worry,

people tell me i "need god" or alturnitive medicine, know what i have to say about that? I say if there is a freakin god he is one mean hateful son of a bitch!!!

cruel and hateful!! so why in the hell would i want anything to do with such a thing? one has to ask there self, if there is a such thing why the hell does he make people suffer? giving them cancer, MS? MD, and all of these other un named illness's why the hell would he give drugies good health when they do not care about there health, and they are trying to kill their selfs anyway,? why would he not give all these illness'es to killers, drugies, rapest, why does he give so many babies to people that just abuse them and not let people that really want them and will take care of them have them, WHY WHY i ask you????, WHY does he torcher good people, and give bad people all the good things in life, like their health and kids, and WHY does he give all the bad things to all the good people what the hell!!!

SO, NO TO ME THERE IS NO GOD,

and to me life is hell so you have to be going to a better place, i truely believe that, I will fight this bull shit he has gave me, and no matter where it rares its ugly head, i will fight harder, soooooooooo SCREW YOU CANCER GO VISIT GOD I CAN HEAR HIM CALLING YOU!!!!

thursday july 16th 11:08 pm