May 4th 2009 days after vacation

going to the doctors with Jim

doctor was late and made jim mad :)

Doctor came in and i knew as he walked through that door it was not going to be good,

Doctor said cancer that aweful "C" word once again rares its ugly head,

Jim i know did not hear a word after that,

he was trying to cover things up saying he was so mad cause the doctor was late,

I KNOW THE FEELING BABE

was no covering it from me,

i had a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes

never did i cry for myself with breast cancer but

i sure cried for him, trying hard to hold everything back until i was alone,

would have done anything to be able to take it all away from him!!!

I knew he wanted to be alone,

I really did not want to leave him, but i knew he needed his alone time too,

i could see how upset he was, i was scared for him all afternoon,

i cried like baby all the way home,

then had to do my afternoon run and i can not tell you how many stops i went past,

went back to Jim;s that night,

I still could feel and see what he was feeling,

i knew he didn;t want to talk about it,

I LOVE YOU BABE

AND ALWAYS WILL NO MATTER WHAT

AND DON;T YOU EVER FORGET THAT!!!!